Unholy Love in a Neat Little Box - SGA and Me

This is something I’ve been promising myself I’d do for a while now that I am no longer completely hiding, feel free to skip over completely if you’re not interested or skip to any individual section. This is for my own piece of mind and will be linked to my profile as guidance for those who need it. Note it is probably extremely rambling in it’s deliverance as I’m pretty much making friends with the painkillers right now-bah migraine.

My likes/dislikes in SGA fandom
My fic in SGA fandom
My “policy” on comments
Wank




Note: everything in this section is what I read, which while a reasonable guideline for what I write, is obviously not always so. Yeah I know that’s rather hypocritical and I’m not denying it.

Guilty pleasures

Well-written-Basically this means that the story is able to draw me in on some level, either with the characterization or the plot or the just beautiful writing style. Some of what I consider well-written might better be considered uniqueness or originality, which yeah I know is pretty much impossible since essentially everything is some spin off of something else. But there is a certain feel a well written fic will have that others lack, as if they understand there is something deeper than just the black and white words on a screen. I should like to point out that for me a well-written fic must have good characterization and plot, the three are not mutually exclusive, though I have been known to enjoy fics with god characterization and not so great plot but that doesn’t happen terribly much.

Canon-Yes I am a canon whore, but not just do I want it realistic in canon I want it realistic in life. When I say realistic I mean the characters and reactions to situations since obviously the idea of Wraith and wormholes is a bit of a stretch in today’s reality. I am not a stickler when it comes to little details unless it’s something that I have come to accept as a fundamental part of the personality, meaning if there’s a fic out there with John not liking golf, no matter when it was written I’m simply not going to like it because part of who John is for me is golf. This might partially explain why crack is usually not something I read.

Domestic fics-Does this really need an explanation? Guilty. Pleasure.

Plot-Imagine that, I like plot, even if the plot is like “an hour in the life of…” Hey that’s still plot. I’m not sure how much more to say on this because it seems self-explanatory.

Sleepy fics-I love with all my heart a fic where one or both of the boys are half asleep. Don’t care what they are doing as long as they are not completely aware of the world around them.

AUs-I’m pretty much a sucker for any and every AU. I define AU as completely unrelated to any Stargate plotline in the future, present, past or alternate dimension. The Stargate program can come in later of course but pretty much only after everything has been set in stone.

Sex with meaning-Everyone enjoys a good PWP but you know there is just something about a sex scene that means something. Now I don’t mean just oh, exploring a new kink or something, that’s not it at all. When I say meaning I say it with the understanding that this is probably one of the more personal, hence less explainable, likes in this list. I like sex where it’s not about the sex. Yes, I mean emotional connection but at the same time not. When I read sex I want to be reading about their lives separate and together in each line, so by the end I feel a deeper connection with them then just ‘omg hot’. I want to feel privileged and honored I have been permitted to see this and to know that even if they don’t admit it aloud they too know some step has been taken, forward or backwards.





Squicks

Humiliation- I thought I had this one but I’ve been noting some of what others consider examples in preparation to write this and I guess I don’t have it as fully as I thought. Granted I still have it, but when it’s done a certain way I guess I don’t even notice it. Like one fic they keep citing is Transcendental and I seriously can not place the humiliation in it. I mean if I go back and flip through it I can see where it could kinda be considered humiliation, but it’s not to the extent that I noticed it. I am also rather amused that some of the people saying oh no humiliation have icons with sarcasm. So it’s like er is not sarcasm its own form of humiliation, not always but sometimes *pokes specifically to the icons they have*? Especially the way McKay hands it out?

Incest-pretty much bothers me on any level and I am rather put out by the fact that a lot of people who are into incest seem to accept sibling incest while abhorring parent/child incest. For some reason this bothers me more than a lot of stuff. I don’t know if it’s because they think it’s different or they never had siblings or what but the whole idea is just squicky for me. One reason I’ve pretty much steered clear of Supernatural both canon and fanon.

BDSM-No. Full stop no. There are no exceptions to this rule. None. I have tried several times to make this at least tolerable because apparently there are some really good ones out there but the who dom/sub thing I frankly don’t get. It’s not sexy or hot or a turn on, it’s degrading and humiliating and just too close to rape for me (and yes I am well aware the most important part of BDSM is the consent part) but I can’t imagine anyone wanting that. Now I accept that there are people in RL who do that sort of thing and enjoy it and that’s their lifestyle but I’ll never get it, so while I accept it in RL for those that chose it it’s a squick in fic. That said a bit of bondage ever once in a blue moon can be fun. For a more full though possibly more confusing explanation of this see my review of Dr. Sheppard and the General and Coming Home

Cross-dressing- Brick. Wall. I think I’ve read one or two in my life and never made it past the second paragraph. I’ve nothing against it I just don’t find it even the least bit intriguing.

Pairings-Yeah so solid McShep shipper here. I was monogamous in HP and I’m monogamous here, that’s pretty much how it goes. If it’s not that pairing I pretty much blow it off, some of the rec ones that are gen or whatever I can read even if it means I have usually skimmed the first paragraph or so and something just clicked. But yeah pretty much if it’s not McShep I won’t even look at it and if it has one of them with someone else I’ve been known to throw a tantrum and sulk. Oddly enough Ronon/Teyla is pretty squicky for me too. I like Teyla too much to put her with someone so…obsessive?

Characterization-All about the canon. Really I am. My own characterizations are sketchy at best so I am slightly forgivable on this one but to be a rec for me (and I don’t put up just recs, I’ll put up other fics if I’m going to make a point about them or make a comment that wouldn’t fit in the box) the characterization has to dead on or damn near. Most of the time if there is even a hint of OC I head the other direction.

Mpreg-Goodbye window closed (if for some odd reason it was ever opened). I hate the idea of it. I probably have a mpreg phobia. I can deal with them having kids, well a kid since for some reason it bothers me for them to have more than one, not sure why, but only if neither of them has actually carried the child. I think that’s why I am more accepting of them with a kid in SGA fandom than I ever was in HP, because in HP if there was a kid, it was born, not an accident where neither parent actually carried the child or whatever. Now once the kid is you know there then sure yay kid but the process, meh not so much. So really I’ve nothing against them having a kid, hello I love Paradigm Shift and the Iowa series but mpreg is something completely on a different level for me. They just aren’t the same thing. A lot of that I know has to do with the feminization which goes against the characterization Nazi I am but not all of it. It’s kinda like cross dressing as in I just don’t get the attraction to men having babies. Frankly I think the whole idea of mpreg is stupid, possibly because I can’t imagine why someone would want to actually go through the nine months and have a kid.





If you clicked here looking for a list fic try this :)

First off let’s get this out of the way-warnings. I don’t warn for anything I feel as the writer would spoil the experience of reading the fic. This means character death, specific spoilers (you will only get the episode it’s from), dark or unhappy endings. If I warn for something mostly it is because I don’t feel it will affect the reader’s experience with the story, like the one AU I am writing right now will end up having a warning but I don’t feel it will take anything away from the reader to know beforehand. I will warn for sexual situations simply because I think it’s polite and so much more of a shock to read when you don’t want to than death but know that there will probably never be anything specific as to what the sexual situation entails. I will probably warn for language if I think it’s more extravagant than what the rating may suggest. That said I do my ratings according to the guidelines found here, which in a nutshell is simply movie ratings.

I don’t like warnings, and personally disagree with them, yes even in cases of noncom or mpreg. While I find myself grateful for warnings on noncom or mpreg as I can’t read that for the most part, I will never throw a fit about there not being a warning because you know what? All I have to do is click that little ‘x’ at the top of my screen if I find something I don’t like. Imagine that. So as the writer I choice not to warn because I do feel it can ruin an amazing story. When you see a warning you go into the fic with certain ideas as to what is going to happen and that’s never a good way to start.

What do I write? Pretty much fluff and angst in equal doses. I steer clear of humor so if there is any humor in a fic outside of sarcasm know it is probably unintentional. I’m not great with the sex writing so there is not likely to be much of that in a story of mine. If I do ever rate something as NC-17, approach with caution. I do my best to stay within my own acceptable levels of characterization and plot but I don’t always succeed.

I am always open to suggestions as to something to write or prompts. I have a hard time coming up with ideas on my own and often require inspiration from others. A lot of my inspiration originates with whatever I am listening to at that point in my life, though it may have no passing resemblance to the theme of the song. So yeah any time anyone has ideas feel free to send them my way.

When I sit down to write I usually have an idea of what I am going to write and often do it all in one sitting with little actual thought as to what I’m writing, meaning wording, phrases and sometimes even POV. In the best way I can explain I write it as I see it in my head and it seems to work.

I don’t have a beta. My past experience with them has not been favorable and as such I have never taken another since the last one I had. However I am most welcoming to any errors you may catch as I know my grammar is par and my punctuation usually sucks, so no matter how many times I read it over before I post it there is liable to still be errors. Concrit is always welcome and I am perfectly willing to discuss any issue or question you may have about the fic. If I begin to feel, however, that the discussion is moving into a direction not quite logical I will ask you to move it to private email with me and lock down or delete the thread, because if you are old enough to have voice an opinion, you are old enough to talk about it calmly and rationally.





I love getting comments, as does any writer and I always make a point to reply to them. I am of the firm belief fandom should be a place to be open with one another so feel free to speak your piece and know I will respond in kind. I try to put as much thought into my responses as I feel is justified by the comment. That is not to say if the response is of the slightly generic ‘Thanks’ that I did not appreciate it. In fact every time I can’t think of anything to say but the generic ‘Thanks’ I feel guilty because you actually took time to comment and I want to give back the same excitement I got from reading what you had to say.

For my own commenting on other’s fic. I am so utterly bad at this. Half the time I forget and the other half I want to say something I can’t put it into words (ironic, yes?) so I end up feeling guilty but at the same time I can never bring myself to give a comment I don’t feel does justification to the fic I’ve read. All in all this ends up meaning I leave very few comments, which is so wrong of me, I know *is shamed* I’ve been trying to get better at it but bad habits die hard, or not at all thus far. One day hopefully I will break out of this lurker installed habit.





Wank. That awful word. I do not encourage nor discourage it, though this little bit of rant may seem otherwise. They say indifference is worse than hate but in this case I don’t think so. For people out there who bring out issues that result in these ultimately ridiculous arguments that will never be resolved and only go to show how fucked up our society/world is in general, I have no respect for you or your “bravery” in “taking a stand”. You are stirring up trouble, period. This goes back to my opinion and rational from the comment section and bears repeating. If you are old enough to voice your opinion you are old enough to calmly and rationally discuss it. Anything else is not only an unacceptable infringement of others’ rights it is unethical and leads me to wonder what happened to basic humanity. As such anyone who cannot put forth an argument that holds more water than “because I say so” will be ignored. Or possibly responded to by fic writing containing said wank issue :)

This will be the only thing I ever say on wank here. Consider this a warning to keep wank away from my journal. On the very off chance this ever happens, any comment or discussion that seems to be turning wankish will be frozen and deleted with an open invitation to continue the discussion by private email with the understanding that I expect you to remain ethical and logical. This pertains to both provokers and defenders of both sides.